Dear 15 Year Old Me
“Oftentimes we may wish that we could go back in time and give our former selves advice and words of wisdom. If you could go back in time, what advice or encouragement would you give to yourself?” Quote by Jubilee Meyer.
When I was 15, the year was 1965. I was in my sophomore year at East High School, in Akron, Ohio, which is where I lived for 31 years of my nearly 69 years of life. The rest of those years were lived in IN, NC, TN and SC.
When I was 15, my dad went into a mental institution for a period of time. [My earthly father was the epitome of Satan to me, for he was an abuser of the worst kind, both to his wife, and to his five children. I was in the middle of the five.] And, then my mom had to go to work full-time to support us.
So, it was a time of great emotional turmoil for me, and yet there was a short period of peace in there, too, now that my dad was gone from the home. Yet, no one talked with us about what had happened, and no counsel was given to us. He just wasn’t there for a while, but we didn’t talk about it.
And, we didn’t know how long he would be gone, or when he would come back. And, not knowing was a fearful thing, for I was the one who had reported the abuse, at the encouragement of my aunt, who knew little.
So, this is the counsel I would like to have given myself at that time:
Dear 15-year-old me,
God loves you. I know you are hurting right now. I know you are confused. I know you need someone to talk with who will listen and who will understand, and who can help you make sense of all this mess. And, I am sorry that, as far as human beings go, those people are far and few between for you right now. And, I am sorry that no human is reaching out to you to help you work through all your emotions and your pain and your suffering.
But, I am thankful that you know Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, and that you are leaning on him for your support, for your comfort, and for your help through it all. I am glad for you that you don’t have to go through this all alone, for many people do. Not everyone has the faith that you have in your Lord and know such love as his. So, although things are bad right now for you, know that you are blessed, for God loves you so very much!!
I want you to know, too, how very precious you are to me and to God. Even before God created the world, he knew you, and he had a plan for your life. He has something very special that he is going to have you do one day, and it is going to mean the salvation of many people’s lives. So, all that you are going through, though I know it is hard, is God preparing you ahead of time for that very special assignment he has chosen just for you.
For, one day you are going to be standing up against giants, and you are going to face much opposition and rejection, and you will suffer even greater abuse and mistreatment than you are right now. I know that doesn’t sound very encouraging, but please know that this is necessary in order to make you strong, for when that time comes you must be able to stand strong in your faith no matter what opposition comes your way, and this is for the glory of God.
So, know that you are very precious in God’s sight, and that God has made you who you are for a reason, and that through all that you are going through, he is putting within you a heart for him, and a passion for his truth, and a compassion for the hurting and the downtrodden, and even for those who abuse others because they are trapped in sin’s deceitfulness.
So, trust Him. Believe that he cares about you, and that he has not abandoned you. Know that he knows about your life from beginning to end, and that he is guiding your life in the way he wants you to go. Everything you are going through is drawing you closer to Him, so that when that times comes, you will be in tune to his voice, and that you will be ready to stand alone, if need be, in order to speak the messages to the people God is going to give you.
So, rest in the Lord. All this does have sense to it, although it is a tragedy, for sure, and I feel with you every pain you have had to suffer along the way. God is making you holy. He is purifying your heart. He is making you strong in your faith, and he is delivering you from fear. For one day you will need this strength like you have never needed it before, and it will be there for you, because of God’s grace to you, and because God prepared you all your life for “such a time as this.”
Love you much! Keep up the good fight of faith, and never give up! Me
Thank you, Vickie, for nominating me for this tag. I knew as soon as I read your tag that this was something God might have me write on, and now I know this was a divine appointment. So, thanks so much!
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If you will forgive me, I am going to break one of the rules here, and I am not going to name five people. So many of my friends on here have already been nominated for so many things, and I don’t really know who would like to do this and who wouldn’t. And, I love you all.
So, I am going to just open this up to those of you who regularly respond to my blog posts to let me know if you would like to do this or not. I did, because I felt God wanted me to share what I did, and so I just ask you to pray and ask the Lord if he would have you to do this, too, and then just let me know by responding to me here. Thanks so much! Sue
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