2 Timothy 1:1-7 (ESV)
Paul, an apostle of Christ Jesus by the will of God according to the promise of the life that is in Christ Jesus,
To Timothy, my beloved child:
Grace, mercy, and peace from God the Father and Christ Jesus our Lord.
I thank God whom I serve, as did my ancestors, with a clear conscience, as I remember you constantly in my prayers night and day. As I remember your tears, I long to see you, that I may be filled with joy. I am reminded of your sincere faith, a faith that dwelt first in your grandmother Lois and your mother Eunice and now, I am sure, dwells in you as well. For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands, for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.
When I was around 7 years old, I believed in Jesus Christ to be my Lord and Savior. I literally sat on a hard church bench at summer camp during the altar call, back when they had such things, and I wept over my sins. I poured my heart out to God. I no longer wanted those sins in my life, and I wanted to follow Jesus with my life wholeheartedly, to give my whole life to him. I was being physically and sexually abused by my dad, too, and I felt the weight of his sin upon me, as well, and I wanted to be free from it all.
I grew up in a home where I witnessed much religious hypocrisy, mixed with severe abuse, and I did not want to live like that. I wanted to live a true Christian life. And, so I began my walk of faith with the Lord, but with that also began much rejection and name-calling, too. I was called “Miss Goody Two Shoes,” “a descriptor for an excessively virtuous person or do-gooder” (1), and other such things like that. I was made fun of at school, mocked in my youth group at church, and rejected by family members, too.
I am certainly not saying all my rejection was because of my sincere child-like faith in Jesus Christ, for certainly some of it was from things I did in the flesh, too, but much of it was because of my testimony for Christ and because of my simple trust in the Lord and in His Word at a time when even many professers of Christianity were questioning the tenets of the faith.
My Adult Years
Simply put, I continued with that child-like trust in the Lord, but along the way I faced many obstacles, not just because of my faith in the Lord, but because of my past, i.e. because of the abuse I grew up under and what that instilled in my heart and in my mind.
So, periodically I battled with temptation in the area of sexual impurity, and with giving into it, mostly in my dreams, but then in a few dating relationships, too, but mostly with the man I eventually married. But, I won a whole lot more battles than I lost, by the grace and power of the Spirit of God living within me.
I walked with the Lord very closely after my husband and I got married, though not in absolute sinless perfection. Early on I felt the call of God on my life to go where he sends me, to say what he commands me to say, and to not be afraid of those who might come against me (See: Jeremiah 1).
I was very serious about my walk with the Lord. I drank in the Word of God, and I believed what it said, and I followed what it said. And, I did what the Lord asked me to do. I went where he sent me, and said what he wanted me to say, and faced rejection and persecution because of it, too. And, it was very hard, but very rewarding, too, for I knew I was in the center of God’s will, doing what he had called me to do, so I rested in that.
But, eventually that faith gave way to fear when the hits kept coming. For, not only was I facing much rejection and persecution from outside of my home, but also from within my home. For, I had married someone quite like my father, only he was not physically abusive with me. And, over time, with him pressuring me within and others without, I eventually caved, and I went through a short period of time where I seriously struggled with and gave in to sexual impurity, with the coaxing and help of my husband.
Revival Took Place
Then, in 2002, I went through a time of revival at my church. It was then that the Lord began to seriously deal with me with regard to what was in my heart, deep down inside, that needed to be healed. I was praying and asking the Lord if there was anyone I had not forgiven. He gave me one name only. It was the name “Jesus.” I immediately understood.
Although I was not consciously aware of this unforgiveness, my behaviors revealed that I was holding on to unforgiveness against Jesus Christ for not rescuing me from all the abuse and rejection and persecution I had faced throughout my life. For, my bad behaviors were the direct result of what was in my heart and what I truly believed in my mind. Although I believed in my head that God was completely sovereign, by my actions I showed I believed he was powerless to help me or that he just chose not to rescue me.
And, so, out of hurt, anger, unforgiveness and self-deprivation, I just gave up. And, I became the person I came to believe I was, i.e. worthless, forsaken, forgotten with no one to love me or to care about me, and with no one to rescue me. And, I hit rock bottom with nowhere to go but up. And, then the Lord reached down and pulled me up out of that pit, and I have not gone back down into it since then. All glory to God!
What he showed me during revival was that, not only did I need to forgive him, although he had done me no wrong, but I needed to trust completely in his sovereignty over my life. He also showed me that I had been fighting off Satan’s attacks and temptations like I fought off my dad’s advances as a child, with arms crossed in front of my face, hoping to not get hit, but knowing that I would.
So, he reminded me that he already won this battle for me. I just needed to live like I believed that. I had to put on that armor of God daily and fight Satan with the sword of the Spirit offensively, knowing that this has already been won, and confident of the victory, and it worked!
The Call of God
In 2004, it was the summer. Someone had finally found my grandmother Jennie’s journals (my Lois). She died when I was only 2 years old, so I never knew her. But, when I began reading her journals, I began to weep. I had finally met someone in my family who I was like. She had that same child-like sincere faith that I did. She had many of the same favorite Bible passages as I did, and she wrote like me, and she expressed herself the way I express myself. And, she had the same hunger and passion for God and for his church that I had, too, and the same burdens on her heart.
She kept quoting this one Bible verse over and over again. She never gave a reference, so I didn’t even know where she got it from. But, one day I discovered it. It was from Habakkuk 2:2-3. This is where God called Habakkuk to write down the revelation on tablets, and to make it plain so that a herald could “run with it,” now the name of my blog. And, then I heard the same passage from several other sources, and then finally at a ministers’ conference (we were church planters at the time).
It was then I knew God was placing a call on my life, which he also told me would not be like any call I had received before, and that it would not be something I would have ever imagined myself, which is so true.
By November of that year he began speaking to me in dreams and visions about what is presently going on in our world with regard to prophesy of scripture being fulfilled, and this was while I was reading through the Old Testament. I had never before experienced anything like that.
And, then he showed me that my “tablet” was my computer, and that I was to place what he was showing me (through the teaching of his Word) on the internet (the herald), so that the herald could “run with it.” And, with child-like faith, I did as he said, even though I didn’t understand it all, and I just shared simply what I believed he was putting on my heart.
As time passed, I began to get many confirmations with regard to what he was showing me. He began to really stretch me with all that he was revealing to me, which he continued to confirm in so many, many ways.
And, the more he kept showing me, and the more I kept learning, the more I became sensitized to what is really going on behind closed doors within our government and with regard to how this fits with prophecy of scripture with regard to these last days before the return of Christ.
In a nutshell, the US government was formed from the beginning to bring about the rule of the beast. This is pictured on our national seal. We were to bring about this New World Order under the direction of the All-Seeing Eye of Horus, i.e. a group of Elite of the world who have been conquering the nations of the world via the US government and their military and their allies for quite a while now. So, this is what our government and military have been doing in all these other countries, taking them down and over.
And, now they are working on doing the same in America. So, all the theatrics we see in our government presently, especially with our president, is for the very purpose to destroy our form of government so that out of the ashes of the old order a new order can come into being, i.e. this New World Order of the beast (Rev. 13). This beast is killing Christians throughout the world, too, and that persecution is on its way to America, as well.
So, listen to what the Lord is saying right now to his church, for we need a revival.
He Gives Purpose
An Original Work / June 9, 2012
“Listen to Me when I’m calling to you.
Obey freely My word.
Follow Me in all of My ways.
Do all that I say.
Hear Me gently whisper to you
My will for your life and future.
Give all of your life and heart to
Follow Me always.”
Repent of your sins and worship Jesus.
He’s your Lord and Master.
He died for your sins so you could
Live with Him today.
He has a plan for your life and
He gives purpose and direction.
He gives meaning to your life,
So follow Him today.
“I love you so much I gave My life for
You to walk in My ways,
Living for Me each day as you
Bow to Me and pray.
Witness for Me of your love for Me and
Of My grace and mercy,
How I died to save you of your
Sins now and always.”
Thursday, February 28, 2019