Rainy Days

It has been raining hard here for a week. It has been dark and dismal. I feel a head cold coming on, nose stopped up, and I have been struggling to stay awake throughout the day. I have had some dizziness during this time, too.

Yet, we are not flooded like many people are right now, who have had to abandon their houses, and the water keeps rising. We have a roof over our heads, and a dry and comfortable place to live and to sleep, for now. So, we have much to be thankful for.

All week long I feel like I have been under attack from the enemy. I have struggled to write several days. A few days I truly just did not feel like writing, so I prayed, and I was honest with God, and I just asked that he take over and be my strength and put his words within me, and he did.

I know that some of this is not coming just from the rain and from my physical condition, but from the condition of my marriage, too, which is not good. My husband still gives in regularly to the lusts of the flesh and lives in continual unfaithfulness and covers it with lies. But, lately he has been confessing more, eventually, but there is still this wall between us, and that weighs heavy on my heart sometimes, and that is where I was today.

Today I was definitely under attack in my emotions, so I just had to pull back from writing and spend some time getting refreshed in my spirit through prayer and through reading what God was teaching my brothers and sisters in Christ, and that encouraged and strengthened me much.

I was battling guilt over not writing today, but I just felt in my spirit that I needed to pull away and have a day to rest and to get refreshed before I could get back to work. And, the Lord encouraged me this evening that it was ok for me to do that, for we all need that sometimes.

Even Jesus had to leave the crowds sometimes and go off somewhere alone and spend time with his heavenly Father. So, we need to do that, too.

Refresh My Spirit, Lord

An Original Work / August 8, 2011
Based off of Psalm 51 & Matthew 11:28-30

Refresh my spirit, Lord.
Revive my heart today.
Move me to serve You,
Lord in all I do and say.
Be my heart’s one desire;
my spirit set on fire
In pure devotion, Lord,
to love you and obey.

Create within me, Lord,
a pure heart, this I pray,
So I can worship You
and yield to You always.
May all Your love and pow’r
be lived in me, I pray,
So I might love as You;
be Your witness today.

Jesus says, “Come to me
all you with heavy hearts,
And find in me your peace,
and give to me your all.
My yoke is light to bear,
‘cause I paid for your sin,
So you might be set free,
and purified within.”

22 thoughts on “Rainy Days

  1. Dear Sue,
    I write when the Lord gives me something to write. If He doesn’t give me something, I don’t worry about it. I am on His schedule, not mine.
    Please don’t feel guilty if you don’t or can’t write…let Him refresh you. He will fill you up when the time is right!
    Hope you are feeling better.
    All my love,
    Valerie

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    • Oh, Valerie, it wasn’t that he didn’t give me something to write. I can’t write if it doesn’t come from him. It was that my emotions were just really not doing well today, and I just had to pull away to get refreshed.

      Yes, I am on his schedule, but my emotions aren’t always there. Most of the time I pray it through, and he gives me the strength I need, but today I just felt I needed to be refreshed in my spirit before I could give out any more. And he refreshed me, which is what I needed.

      Thank you so much for your encouraging words. I appreciate them very much. Thank you for caring, too. Your prayers would be most appreciated. Thank you.

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      • Valerie, Thank you! God knows. He is in control. Sometimes we just need to step away because he has something he needs to do in our hearts and lives before we can get back in there. Sometimes writing is not what he wants, for he has us ministering to people face to face and living what we write about with people we can see and touch.

        It is then we just need to rest in him, and believe that he has it all under his control, and that his will be accomplished through it.

        I just know that for me yesterday I had to step away from it all and be refreshed and be encouraged by what God is teaching others, and that helped give me the strength I needed to face today in the strength of the Lord.

        I pray God will give you his peace through your family crisis and that you will be used of him these days that you can’t write to minister his love and grace to your family members. God bless you! Thanks so much for being here. You are a blessing! ❤

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  2. Oh, Sue- how I pray your marriage finds new life through Christ! I pray you continues to pursue the Lord with all your heart and by doing so, shine brightly for your husband to see, that he may be led to Him. God bless you and your husband!

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    • Amy, Oh I am quite aware of who is behind all of this. I know that I have been under attack from the enemy this past week. That is why I had to pull away and have some time to get refreshed in my spirit, and to get strengthened so that today I can keep on keeping on in the faith and in what God has called me to do.

      I know that some of you have been praying for me, for the Lord delivered me yesterday from that heaviness that was oppressing me, and I am back to normal today. Praise the Lord!

      Thank you for your encouragement and for your friendship. They mean much to me. ❤

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    • Amy, I read the article you sent me. Although I agreed with a lot of it, and I agree that our true struggle is not against flesh and blood but against Satan and his demons, this is not to say that other people don’t mean to hurt us or that they are not our enemies. For, the Bible tells us we will be hated, persecuted, abused, mistreated, falsely accused and even put to death for our walks of faith in Jesus Christ.

      I think to say that others don’t mean to harm us can be a lie of Satan, and to say to them who do willfully abuse and use us to their own advantage that they didn’t mean it, it is giving them an out, and it is lying to them and helping to feed their own lies.

      They need to face the reality of the evil that they do and that it comes from what is within their hearts, and to love them is to speak the truth in love to them, not to give them a pass and to tell them they didn’t mean it, when they did.

      Yes, there are times when we hurt each other and we don’t mean to do it. There are times when we say things that are unkind, which then just exposes what is in our own hearts, but we say them not to hurt, but because we are hurting because others are mistreating us, and there we must look at what is in our hearts, and deal with those issues, which may be unforgiveness or bitterness or whatever, and get cleansed of those things so we don’t respond badly to mistreatment.

      But, we do others a huge disservice if we excuse away their sinful behaviors by blaming the devil totally, for each of us is responsible for what we do and how we treat others. And, each of us is responsible for how we respond to the mistreatment of others, too. But, part of that response has to include speaking the truth in love so that the other person can face the reality of his or her own heart and behavioral issues, and hopefully to move them to repentance, not in false judgment, mind you, for we must guard against that, but in honest confrontation regarding known sins, obvious sins, especially those which are repeated over and over and over again without any true repentance taking place.

      Anyway, overall I thought the article had some good points, and it has merit, but this really concerned me, the approach that tells the offender that he didn’t mean to do what he did, for that could be true, but in many cases it is not, and the most loving thing to do is not to cover the sin, but to confront it, but then to forgive and keep loving that person even if the abuse continues.

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